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Nice Little Box

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Recently I saw a movie called Hidden Figures and thought that this could not be a true story.  This motion picture coupled with Fences were the two African American must see films this year, but Hidden Figures impacted me far beyond August Wilson’s screenplay.  The memories of my past flooded my mind because I was alive during the climax of the real events that occurred in this movie yet was ignorant of the facts Hidden Figures exposed.  It was exciting to know that it was the mathematics of a black woman that came into play when determining the trajectory used to get a man to the moon and back to earth safely in 1969.  Why wasn’t this taught during Black History month while I was coming to age?  Opening a Pandora’s box of other questions like: Did we ever arrive on the moon and why haven’t we returned since 1969?  Did Galileo and Newton discover the great things they were credited with or was it of African origin, etc.?

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Sixth Grade 1979 Princeton Ave School Lakewood NJ

Remembering asking my guidance counselor why I had to take applied math instead of algebra my freshman now made sense and remembering why the zeitgeist frowned upon African Americans pursuing advanced science and math courses.  During the eighties, it was considered very uncool to enjoy these disciplines.

My DNA begged to differ not towards math but didactical thinking.  How could wisdom be veiled and replaced with a bundle of lies and mistreatments and an standardized  devaluation of the mitochondrial strains which internally connect me?  Instead of celebrating the scholastic interests that were ever so present, people around me while I was growing up reveled in simple jest and were content with a bundle of lies handed to us by American culture.

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Her confession may have helped clear Donham’s conscience and bring her to this place of “tender sorrow” but for many others who are just learning that she lied on Emmett Till it does nothing.

HIDDEN FIGURES?

This movie was a micro view into a panoramic past.  The biggest fraud was the logic that brown and tan people were inherently criminal.  This logic is apparent from the overwhelming number of African Americans and Latinos that are in the prison population as opposed to Asians, Askenazi Jews and Whites for that matter.  Brown and Tan people in America are placed in boxes in America and fed lies repetitively until a lie is accepted as truth.  This great deception is a strong delusion!  Brown and tan people are carted to correctional facilities so Blanche could be safe. While fakers like the bloody Dame who lied on Emmit Til sing America the beautiful.

After being fed lies for nearly fifty years, I am coming to realize that Black is a status.  A status of inferiority immediately thrusts upon brown or tan individuals born in America, hounding us non stop publicly and privately.  This is a design that perpetuates a permanent underclass in the United States of America.  Those who subscribe to racism and are subject to its ill effects are its legitimate preservers (see Stockholm Syndrome).  It is sick when whites are rewarded for being white and brown and tan people are denigrated for being brown or tan.  When this behavior is institutionalized it is not long until that society ends unless this malady is corrected.  But once you accept this reward OJ of Bill Cosby still keep it real with your folks Tiger Woods.  Once you betray those brown and tan Americans still held at bay by the false iron grip of racism and whites get tired of using you where can you go or where can they turn?  White society acts as a unit because the media controls their train of thought.  (with a few exceptions.  True black beauty lies in the fact that you could be yourself without keeping another brown or tan person down.  The Willie Lynch style indoctrination is breakable by the warrior soul.  My beautiful black princes and princesses who rise above mediocrity into the blissful state of I AM.

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Don’t Spill Your Seed

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PRAYER:

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.  John 14:26


Genesis 38: 1-8

“And it came to pass at that time, that Judah went down from his brethren, and turned in to a certain Adullamite, whose name was Hirah.

And Judah saw there a daughter of a certain Canaanite, whose name was Shuah; and he took her, and went in unto her.

And she conceived, and bare a son; and he called his name Er.

And she conceived again, and bare a son; and she called his name Onan.

And she yet again conceived, and bare a son; and called his name Shelah: and he was at Chezib, when she bare him.

And Judah took a wife for Er his firstborn, whose name was Tamar.

And Er, Judah’s firstborn, was wicked in the sight of the Lord; and the Lord slew him.

And Judah said he unto Onan, Go in unto thy brother’s wife, and marry her, and raise up seed to thy brother. 


1988
ief 1988

Ice Breaker: 

Skill sets learned from volunteering and working with others must be used to glorify God.

Brief Bio: I once lived as the Prodigal Son: Lesson learned

Experience is not the best teacher, learning from others is …………

I am no Stranger to the System ………… After volunteering to Clean Bathrooms in Prison the Correctional Officers gave me bags of fried chicken Sunday morning to distribute to others who were helpful around the dorm.

After volunteering as a Street Sweeper in Manitou Park, Mayor Zimmerman asked me to be a Policeman.

then after volunteering to vacuum the church I got a job at Sears Carpet Cleaning.

Currently, the author is the Owner of BFC Carpet and Furniture Cleaning and President of Bread Day Ministries: a 501(c) 3 charitable organization.


P.O.V. s

  • Everybody wants to have nice things but few are willing to work for it

  • An important part of working for it is making your ground good by keeping someone else’s goods. 

  • A good attitude and having Faith in God, (Hebrews 11:1, 6) are essential building blocks for good success.

  • God will give you a strategy when you are faithful over another’s wealth.


Sub text:

Matthew 25:14 “For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods.”


God at work Subject:

Maturity: a fullness, something you can’t rush to be it unfolds into perfection in a particular season.


Other Titles:

God Loves the Obedient Stewart

Making your Election Sure by Gaining Good Ground.


Key Scripture:

Genesis 38: 9

And Onan knew that the seed should not be his; and it came to pass, when he went in unto his brother’s wife, that he spilled it on the ground, lest that he should give seed to his brother.”


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Theme: Golden Rule     

  • How you treat people is a reflection of the type of person you are

  • Not the person who’s receiving the comment whether good or bad.

  • Don’t respond according to how you are treated.

  •  Respond from a point of integrity from righteousness.

 


 Question:

Matt 5: 46 -48 For if you love them which love you, what reward have ye? (ANSWER) Do not even the publicans the same?

47 And if you salute your brothers only, what do you more than others? Do not even the sinners so? (NO DIFFERENCE).

48 Be ye therefore perfect (MATURE), even as your Father which is in Heaven is perfect (ALL SUFFICIENT).


Beatitudes:

Matt 5:7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

Matt 5:9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.


Second Sub text:

Genesis 37 – 48  We know the story of Joseph in the Bible of how he was thrown in the pit by his brothers who called him a dreamer.  He later was taken out of the pit and ended up in jail falsely accused long story short he solved a problem for the Pharaoh and became second in command.

Joseph didn’t respond according to how he was treated

Joseph went from Pit, to Prison, to the Palace.  We know the story of Joseph in the Bible of how he was thrown in the pit by his brothers who called him a dreamer.  He later was taken out of the pit and ended up in jail falsely accused of making advances against his boss’ wife.  Joseph later gained authority in Egypt surpassing all in command but the Pharaoh

Nestled in this section in chapter 38 in Genesis is the story of a relationship of a Family a husband wife three sons and a Daughter in Law.

Namely Judah, Shuah and his 3 sons and Tamar:

Judah was the fourth born son of Israel (God’s first born).

Judah was the brother that influenced his brothers to spare the life of Joseph when he was in the pit (Gen. 37: 26-27).

Don’t respond according to how you are treated.


Third Sub Text: Good Samaritan Luke 10th

 Respond from a point of integrity from righteousness.

And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead. 31 And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. 32 And likewise a Levite, when he was at the place, came and looked on him, and passed by on the other side. 33 But a certain Samaritan, as he journeyed, came where he was: and when he saw him, he had compassion on him, 34 And went to him, and bound up his wounds, pouring in oil and wine, and set him on his own beast, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him. 35 And on the morrow when he departed, he took out two pence, and gave them to the host, and said unto him, Take care of him; and whatsoever thou spendest more, when I come again, I will repay thee. 36 Which now of these three, thinkest thou, was neighbour unto him that fell among the thieves? 37 And he said, He that shewed mercy on him. Then said Jesus unto him, Go, and do thou likewise.

Don’t respond according to how you are treated.

 


Scripture Text: Genesis 38: 1-8

Verse 1.

And it came to pass at that time that Judah went down from his brethren, and turned in to a certain Adullamite (refuge city between Jerusalem and Laschish, ancient Canaanite royal city, David hid here with his men 1 sam 22:1 2Sam 23:13), whose name was Hirah (became Judah’s friend, a kind man who lived 1900 BC).

Directional: Went down doesn’t imply a spiritual descent but a geographical change a change in atmosphere (compare Samaritan).

What he did accomplish was the effective separation from his brothers.

Verse 2

And Judah saw there a daughter of a certain Canaanite, whose name was Shuah (prosperity) and he took her, and went in unto her.

While in the house of the Adullamite he met and later married a woman named Shuah.

Shuah became Judah’s wife but later died verse 12.

Verse 3

And she conceived, and bare a son; and he called his name Er (Watcher).

Verse 4

And she conceived again, and bare a son; and she called his name Onan (Vigorous).

Conceived again mean that these boys where no twins, (as Cain and Abel, Jacob and Esau Manasseh and Ephaim, Pharez and Zerah ) by mentioning one conception there must have been a 9 month interval between the conceptions.  Scripture doesn’t tell us that Judah went back to be with the other brothers or stayed among the Canaanites.

Verse 5 not

And she yet again conceived, and bare a son; and called his name Shelah (promised but not given): and he was at Chezib, when she bare him.

Altogether three sons

And Judah took a wife for Er his firstborn, whose name was Tamar.

And Er, Judah’s firstborn, was wicked in the sight of the Lord; and the Lord slew him.

And Judah said unto Onan, Go in unto thy brother’s wife, and marry her, and raise up seed to thy brother.

And Onan knew that the seed should not be his; and it came to pass, when he went in unto his brother’s wife, that he spilled it on the ground, lest that he should give seed to his brother.


P.O.V.s

  • Respond from a point of integrity from righteousness.

  • Especially regarding another’s possessions

  • Be a good steward.


Onan disobeyed his Fathers instructions and the Lord Slew Him.

LEGAL AND CUSTOMS: The keeping of ordinances the primogenitor had exclusive rights to the inheritance of the Father.  “Sanctify unto me all the firstborn, whatsoever openeth the womb among the children of Israel, both of man and of beast: it is mine.” Ex 13:2

Er: Watcher – Wicked

Onan: Vigorous not given – Spilled Seed

When you are subject to work for to the benefit of another and you know that they were wicked be faithful.  Give it your best.  Put your best foot forward.  Know that this is your finest hour. Excel (out the box). Don’t spill your seed. Be effective where ever you are.  Make your ground good.

Tamar disappointed because Shelah was not given to her.

She dressed as a prostitute and when to receive her Father in Law when Shuah (prosperity) died twins born Zerah (shining, risen w/red cord) and Pharez.

It took Judah’s fourth son Pharez (breach) ancestor of Christ that would become the linage from which the Lion of the tribe of Judah would hail.


Black LionAside:

Jacob gives a blessing to all of his son Genesis 49:8-10 King James Version (KJV)

Judah, thou art he whom thy brethren shall praise: thy hand shall be in the neck of thine enemies; thy father’s children shall bow down before thee.

Judah is a lion’s whelp: from the prey, my son, thou art gone up: he stooped down, he couched as a lion, and as an old lion; who shall rouse him up?

10 The sceptre shall not depart from Judah, nor a lawgiver from between his feet, until Shiloh come; and unto him shall the gathering of the people be.


Revelation:

RESPONSIBLE: (response-able) an honorable attribute that refuses to take the path of least resistance.

Everything that looks good is not for you (Shuah) prosperity

All money is not good money (i.e people, even parking spaces)

Respond from a point of integrity from righteousness.


RBC Ministries PhotoPrayer:

For forgiveness for spilled seed including anything wasted in the past.  Covenant to use resources to glorify God.   Give your self away and get lost in God; thereby, finding your purpose touching destiny.

Israel’s Green Socks

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Israel wearing green sock in E-Block (Marion County Jail, Indianapolis, IN)
Israel wearing green sock in E-Block (Marion County Jail, Indianapolis, IN)

Israel wore one pair of socks for 6 months.  They were green and never stunk.  He had time on his hand so he cleaned them ever chance he got.  Every time he stepped out of his cell, murderers gazed and robbers railed but, he never fell.

As he read the Good Book, he acquired sympathy for the Children of Israel and their wilderness experience.  Israel began to understand why they achieved zero velocity. Going nowhere fast; talking slick but really sick inside.  One day during his 6 month stay he had an epiphany: a sort of a self discovery.  Reflecting back, he thought: “God, had His hand my his life all the time.”  Also realizing that he’ll make little progress, if any with a bitter disposition regardless of circumstance.

His cell mates cheered ecstatically when cops crashed as the evening news reported.  This he wondered about in bewilderment and concluded that their cheers were disguised hostility.  Israel discovered that you can be free while incarcerated and to be bitter inside, even if you have a reason is a tragic experience.  He didn’t want to lose hope as the others.

      Serving time for running from the cops, in contrast to the others who were looking at 35, 65 or 99 years.  Pulled over after the cops noticed his car trunk ajar, he put the petal to the metal.  Afraid they’ll find the open containers and paranoid he sped off.   He was caught tazed and processed all with those same green socks.

Israel wearing green sock in E-Block (Marion County Jail, Indianapolis, IN)
Israel wearing green sock in E-Block (Marion County Jail, Indianapolis, IN)

His green socks never smelled and gained distinction as the one who wore them became known as short timer (an instant target).  With much caution he tryed to understand the authorities who put him with jealous killers.  He knew the authorities were not empathetic to a brown mother who raised him clean.  Israel thought “I hope I can make it out of this alive.”  He knew that his demise would irreparably tear his mother apart.  So what did Israel do while in the fire of this affliction?  He started a gospel choir and it was revealed that he was indeed an evangelist.

Summertime blues
Summertime blues

Those green socks soon became a symbol of inspiration inside the walls of the jail where hope seemed to fail.  An itinerant evangelist was born there that stepped upon the burning coals of affliction, wearing green socks and flip flops striding where free men never crept under constant awareness of being killed the grace of God protected Israel where the price of human life was worth a honey bun.

His green socks never gave, even to his last day of this experience when he saw a peeking toe.  That is how he knew it was time to go.

Taken in Atlantic City NJ (2010)
Taken in Atlantic City NJ (2010)
“For the Lord thy God hath blessed thee in all the works of thy hand: he knoweth thy walking through this great wilderness: these forty years the Lord thy God hath been with thee; thou hast lacked nothing” (Deut. 2:7).

The Brother that Jesus Loved

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1988
1988

My son:

You’ve been through much just to get here the wavy roller coaster ride through rough and smooth terrain. Now you are here at your destination and you have much to share.  The value of your experience is not to be discarded but placed together in a book for others to see. The broken pieces have value when put together as the weight of Gold, the great expectations and misfortunes, the joys and pains. You are a living witness that attests to the saying that favor is not fair.

the Witness,

Why has God chosen you to prosper with the array of others present? Because, you worked and listened while you focused your attention on Him and gathered, no not to any unnecessary attention that the frivolous parlay and flesh relish in;  in the sight of predators, grabbers; constantly competing with themselves, as if contending with an awesome God.

 

on the path

Footprints in the Sand
Footprints in the Sand

Yes, your perspectives are right and the path through the woods was worth it because of the gems and nuggets found by drudgery and failure after failure. You’ve found the light in a good season in your life you’ve worked out the misfortunes and traveled through them with grace and many times you were carried and placed in safety. I’ve always loved you, now I have the opportunity to bestow my love on you because you have been obedient to Me and it is your field that I seek to bless with an abundance of wealth. You shared your time and efforts, even your gifts and talents; now it is my turn to show out on your behalf.

 

MODERN CHRISTIAN CONCEPTS
Scene of the Nomadic Prophet

I need Thee.

I used to worry and lose my way, succumb to temptation and stay-bound to a yoke as Satan cracked his whip. People cut me with the lip and lashed-out with the tongue, like I wasn’t my mother’s son. Constantly battered by a barrage of unfriendly words saved sanctified and filled with His Holy Spirit yet hurt by the ones I love. Clinging to His presence like. it was my very life lost in His word estranged to the world; walking stepping careful not to offend in the humid heat or cold shower rains, I can never please man.